A Beginning

So, I chose the name "Pea Soup" because I wanted to convey what my brain is like these days. After graduating from grad school, it seems like all of the knowledge has leaked out of my brain somehow. My vocabulary (when speaking) is minimal...I talk like a first grader these days. At the same time, I have so many thoughts fluttering around my brain that I can not get a moment of peace - even when I am asleep! So, I thought that blogging might be a good release for me since I can't afford therapy. There are so many things I want to say - to get out into the open - yet I don't want to offend anyone or start some big conversation that turns into an argument...mostly it's just to get the thoughts outside of myself where they can evolve into something more and then I can decide if it is something I want to keep as a part of who I am or not. Make sense? I guess it doesn't matter since I'm not expecting many people to even see this.

Anyway, I'm poor and looking for work. I'm trying to help plan a wedding (my own) that I can not contribute to financially and I am STRESSED out. I have no health insurance and I'm on medication that I need to stay sane. Also, I have a (what's the word I'm looking for here? See what I mean about my vocabulary?) challenging relationship with my family which causes me a lot of guilt, sadness, anger and anxiety. I'm sure I'll get into more detail regarding them eventually. And I get very little sleep, so I will likely be on here often until I get a full time job.